It's November. I've done nothing except slacking, doing shit for projects, doing things i dun like and live like a zombie.
I hate myself. I'm not a superman. I jus a poly student who did badly for exams and projects. I still remember in the month of Oct, i have defined my goals, but everything is jus not feasible. i did not have a concrete plan or whatsoever shit to support my ideas. I dun have capital, knowledge, ideas or skills. I am a idiot who knows nothing.
i jus wanna say sorry to those who did projects with me. This period of time, i may submitting shit to u all. I may not be able to get my ass up again. I'm just like a fallen bird. i wanna fly. i wanna live carefreely. i dun want to be tied down. i dun believe in destiny. I wanna live my own life.
Actually, i think i am a loser. i always find ways to avoid my responsibilities. I even resort to smoking but i was choke by it so i decide not to. What a loser right? I also tried other ways to relieve stress. Let me named some......
1. Driving - I always like to drive fast. Sad to say, i'm already numb to it. even 180km/h seems slow to me. It's not that i boast or whatsoever. i guess i've been driving too fast for a long time. The thrill is not there anymore. So i choose to piss other road drivers. i like to cut lanes which almost crash into others and do some emergency brakes. i know i am an ass but for now, the fun still able to entertain me. I love to play taxi driver especially. LOL
2. Rant - i guess no one knows i am an emo shit. i drive alone at night and shout on expressway without any aims.
3. Violence - i always punch my cupboard and wall
4. Kill bugs - i love to cut ants' legs, use needle to poke beetles.
5. Lying on bed pretending i'm dead.
If anyone who did the same things as i did, contact me! lets do it together =D
I guess no one will get to read this! UNLESS u STALK ME! LOL! which is impossible.
